Author: Ila Way!
Pairing: HeeShik, KevShik, HeeWoo, HeeWan, one sided TaeChul
Genre: Romance/Angst? (a little...)
Disclaimer: I don't own Heechul, Hyungshik, Kevin or any of ZE:A members but I do own the right to love them ;]
Too Late First Remix
Minwoo let Heechul go with a heavy burden in his ever silent possessive heart. He huffed and watched Heechul's back walking away from him and Taehun and he just can't fight the feeling of sadness that crept slowly into him.Even though he knew that he would see Heechul again, it's just a matter of time, but it still hurts to see Heechul walking away, the growing distance between them feels like a sharp sword pointed to him. Because a part of him knows that in the end it will be like that. Only that in the end Heechul will never come back. He watched Heechul's back slowly disappearing before Taehun pat his shoulder, asking for his attention. He tore his gaze away from the disappearing man and look at Taehun who just gave him a signal to move on with his eyes. He walked away from his spot, accompanied with Taehun since their way back home is in the same direction. He was staring at the road he walked on the whole time, not knowing what to say in their walk. Taehun is Heechul's best friend, he noted but he never really talk to him. Maybe because he was always too occupied with Heechul every time he met him.
Taehun looked at the boy walking beside him. He doesn't really know Minwoo, he only know him as Heechul's second approved lover. Or is it second official lover? Minwoo is a cute boy and he has that look that Heechul likes. From the soft brown hair, to his slim figure, definitely Heechul's type. But there's one thing that he can't understand. He knew Minwoo is Hyungshik's best friend. And he knew Minwoo knew perfectly about Heechul's and Hyungshik's love relationship. But why is Minwoo still having relationship behind Hyungshik's back? He wondered for a minute but then a protective side of him surfaced. He nodded his head slightly and stopped on his track.
"Minwoo, if you don't mind, can I ask you something?" asked Taehun. He put his hands into his pockets and waited for Minwoo's reply.
Minwoo stopped on his track too and looked at Taehun, "Yes, of course, hyung." Minwoo didn't have much in his mind that time, he was just lost in staring at the seemingly endless road.
Taehun let out an easy breath, "Why are you with Heechul?" He knew his question is a bit rude but he needed to know.
Not catching the actual question, Minwoo replied, "Why? Of course because I love him." He sent Taehun a confused look and Taehun just scratches his head on that.
Taehun thought for a while, on how to ask him properly and how to satisfy his curiosity too. After what it seemed like 5 seconds, he took a deep breath, "No, I mean, why are you still with Heechul when you know you're the second guy? Heechul doesn't even pay attention to you as much and he only admits Hyungshik as his boyfriend."
Somehow that sounded a bit harsh on Minwoo's ears than Taehun would have expected. Minwoo looked away from Taehun and start staring at the amazingly same road again. "Oh... I thought you never mind about stuff like this since it has nothing to do with you." His heart was a little touched, in a sad way, when he replied that. He knew that wasn't the reply Teahun wanted but he just didn't want to tell him why. Because it is definitely none of Taehun's business.
Not satisfied with the lousy answer, Taehun asked again, "Why are you doing all these? You know one day he'll walk away and hurt you in the process." He sympathized Minwoo. He knew perfectly that one day Heechul will ditch the boy like nothing ever happened. It has happened before. Heechul sometimes doesn't give damn about what others are feeling.
Minwoo look up again, abandoning the road he has been staring at and stared at Taehun into the eyes, "It doesn't matter, I'm prepared for that. As long as he stays by my side for now, it doesn't matter. I just want him to look at me. It doesn't matter even if it hurts." His heart feels like it's been scratched brutally now. He meant each and every of his words but he suddenly feel melancholic and a little scared. He is not ready for that yet and he wished Heechul would stay with him until he hates to be with Heechul. Which means forever because he didn't think he can ever hate Heechul no matter what Heechul would do to him.
"But that's just so wrong. You shouldn't do this, Minwoo." He can see that Minwoo was hesitating a little, maybe about this whole thing and Taehun just feel like Minwoo shouldn't continue this. It would hurt Minwoo more than he can ever imagine.
Minwoo snapped when he heard that. What does Taehun know about him? Who is him to tell him it's not right? "What do you want me to do then? Watching him from the back, from afar and never let him know how I feel? No, that would hurt me even more. I want him. I want him to look at me. I want him to kiss me and tell me he loves me even if he lied about it. At least I still have him in that moment." He feel like his heart is going to burst. This talk has made him agitated and he felt insecure when Taehun bring this up.
"Don't you feel guilty when you see Hyungshik?" Taehun asked again. He can see Minwoo's expression changed when he said Hyungshik's name. He knew Minwoo feels guilty. "He trusted you as his best friend." Taehun wanted to add more on that but he didn't have the heart when Minwoo look like he was about to cry and frustrated.
"What do you want me to do?" Minwoo cried. Really, what should he do? Is there anyway to turn this right? "I... I can't help it. I'm so in love with him. People said there's no justice in love and war. I know I'm wrong but I deserve any chances I can get. And Heechul is happy when he is with me. Why do you have to care?" He turned away, not wanting to see what Taehun will react for his next words, "I know you loved him too. I know just by the way you look at him. I know all of those concern aren't just because he's your friend, hyung. I can see it."
Minwoo ran, leaving Taehun speechless with what he just said. He just can't stand it anymore. All the questions are hurting him deeply. He knew it all. He knew he was wrong for being the reason of Heechul cheating behind Hyungshik's back. He knew he was wrong in all of this but even when everything seems so wrong, there is still one thing that's right. He knew Heechul is happy spending the time with him. He felt his tears slowly fell. Fuck, why is he crying? This is so unlike him. He ran and ran, not aware of where he is going. All of Taehun's words are playing in the back of his head like a broken record and he hates that. He already spent too much time thinking about the same exact question Taehun just asked. Every time he's with Hyungshik, the questions and the guilt never leave him. Only when he's with Heechul, everything just seem so right. Only when he's with Heechul alone. He tried to stop his tears from falling and he wiped it with his hand. He didn't notice the rock on the road so when he step on it, he lost his balanced and tripped, falling on the harsh black tar brutally.
He ignored the pain and pull himself up. It hurts freaking much, the fall had his elbow and his knee getting cuts. He looked at his side, there was a park but there's nobody there. Probably because it's getting late in the evening. The birds are leaving too, casting moving shadows on the ground. He pull himself forcefully to one of the bench there and sat there, examining his wounded leg. He sighed at the sight. Why is he so clumsy? Now both of his heart and his body hurts. Maybe this is what he have to endure for loving Heechul. He let out an awkward laugh at the thought. Is this karma? What more will happen to him if he keep on being stubborn in loving Heechul? He didn't know. No, he don't want to know because he just don't want to care about it. No matter what happens, he will stay stubborn. He will always love Heechul. Not even karma can scare him now. His heart was screaming and he was frustrated. He let out a scream in the open air, "AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" When he lost his breath and can't continue the long scream, he coughed. He depleted too much air from his lungs, it hurts now. He tried to catch his breath and that's when he saw him. His black knight.
Taehun just watched Minwoo running away from him. He shakes, how did Minwoo... How did Minwoo knew he loved Heechul? He thought no one knows. He had been Heechul's friend for too long, no one ever know that secretly he loved him. But why? Why does Minwoo know and more importantly, how? How did he know? He was good at keeping his feelings. He was hurt so much every time Heechul had relationships with other people, he had gotten used to it. He... don't want Heechul to know his feelings. He is the opposite of Minwoo, he never had the courage to honestly tell Heechul what he's feeling. He took the step of just watching him happy because when Heechul is happy, a warm happiness will surround his heart. Even though sometimes it hurts but when ever he see Heechul smiles, he would smile too. What matters more was Heechul and not him. He stared at the same road Minwoo was staring at earlier. Maybe, Heechul broke more hearts than he ever know.
Heechul slammed the door behind him. His hands are shaking, his heart was pounding and he didn't know what to do so he walked away. Away from Hyungshik, away from their home, away from his nightmare. He, trusted Hyungshik with all his life. He, trusted Hyungshik will never cheat on him despite of what he have been doing all this time. He thought he knew Hyungshik. He thought Hyungshik is innocent but he guess nothing in this world is not tainted. Nothing in this world is so innocent after all. Not even Hyungshik. He just walked away from their shared apartment and walked mindlessly to just somewhere he didn't even care to know.
For the first time in his life, his heart ache so much he thought that it would explode in any second.
For the first time in his life, he loved and believed someone with all his heart, body and soul and guess what happens? He was broken.
Heechul laughed. He felt so stupid. He feel so stupid to ever love someone as deep as he loved Hyungshik. He should have just be who he was before. His cold, selfish, sadistic self who cares and loves no one. How come Hyungshik changed him so much? If he was the one he was before, this heart, wouldn't hurt as much. He could just ignore what Hyungshik have done and just live normally. But he couldn't do that. This new hurting feeling is too much for him to handle. He just don't know what to do. The air is so cold. It hits him that he even forgot to bring his sweater along. No, maybe this cold air could help freezing his aching heart. Maybe it's good to torture himself in this cold. Maybe that's just what he needed for now. He walked, dragging his feet while staring on the road he walked on. His body started to get weak with every step or is it just that he started to feel numb? Maybe it's the cold air killing his senses. He was lost in his own mind when he heard a loud high pitched voice calling his name.
He look up to see a figure running towards him. Minwoo. But something was off, the way Minwoo ran looks weird. Then he saw the blood and he sighed. Minwoo must have tripped again, he noted at the back of his head. Sometimes Minwoo is just too ignorant that he gets a little clumsy. He stayed on his place and let Minwoo embrace him. Minwoo is warm, he thought. Minwoo was happy to see his lover at the park. His aching heart just healed like that when he saw Heechul, his one and only love. Now his heart started to beat faster again as he hug the love of his life. And Heechul's pat on the back just calmed him, and made him forget about all that just happened before. He even forgot about his pain on his cuts. The wind suddenly stopped flowing and that moment, it feels like time stopped for them.
Heechul was the first one to let go. He looked at his lover. His heart voiced out, who is Minwoo to him?
Minwoo stared into Heechul's eyes. There's something off in there. Minwoo pouted, "Heechul-ah, is there something wrong?"
Heechul's mind wandered on the question. Who is Minwoo to him? Who is Hyungshik now? Who is Taehun? Who is Kevin? Who is everybody? He is confused. He just suddenly feel so confused. It's like he can't make or understand anything. It's like his world is starting to dissapear.
Not getting any answer from Heechul, Minwoo asked again, worried, "Heechul-ah, are you okay?"
Just suddenly those questions changed into something so distorted in his mind. He can hear himself asking, 'Hyungshik-ah, are you okay?' and the image of Hyungshik appeared. His scared eyes, his trembling body, his tears. What have he done to Hyungshik? His eyes widened, he was shocked for a moment and his anger just suddenly gets into him back. He pushed Minwoo to the nearest wall, trapping him in between his body and the cold hard wall. Minwoo yelp at the sudden push and closed his eyes when his back hits the wall. Heechul stared into his second lover's surprised expression. Minwoo opened his eyes again to see a stare directed at him. He frowned and continued call his love's name, "Heechul-ah." Just as soon as those words left Minwoo's lips, a kiss was planted. Heechul didn't know why he kissed Minwoo, maybe it's just a habit of him or maybe he just wanted to kiss him, he never know but the kiss silenced Minwoo out. Minwoo was a little shocked at that but he just closed his eyes and kissed back.
When he felt Minwoo kissing him back, he pulled out. Minwoo was shocked when he suddenly pull away and his eyes were begging for an explaination Heechul couldn't offer. He let go of Minwoo and turned his back. Minwoo's eyes widened at Heechul's act and he grip on Heechul's hand. He had a bad feeling and his heart started to beat even faster. "H-Heechul?" Heechul didn't turn around to meet Minwoo's eyes, "Let go." He said coldly, voice deep in his throat. Minwoo heard it but he gripped on even tighter, "W-what's wrong, Heechul? D-did I did... something wrong?" Minwoo was scared, a bad feeling stayed inside him, a feeling that tells him that Heechul will leave him. No, please, don't leave him. Heechul just walked away, ignoring Minwoo's question. Minwoo's hard grip on his hand causes the younger to be dragged too and Minwoo kept on asking, if he did something wrong, if there's something wrong, what's wrong and Heechul kept on ignoring. His mind suddenly went blank, he didn't want to think, he didn't want to talk, he didn't want to answer.
Minwoo didn't give up, he was crying, he was begging now for answers, it's almost heartbreaking but Heechul didn't even spare him a look. Heechul himself didn't know why he ignores Minwoo, Minwoo was loud to his hear, and he tried everything to grab his attention. His mind was just blank. A pure white nothingness. Maybe it's just that he just don't want to think. Because everytime his brain works, Hyungshik keeps on appearing, his lies, his tears, his own wrongdoing to Hyungshik, Minwoo, Kevin, his own lies and it hurts his head so, he just don't want to think. He pushed away everything that would bring him to Hyungshik. Even Minwoo's crying voice, Minwoo's tears, Minwoo tight hold on to his hand. "Heechul... Hee... L-look... at me... Why are... why are you... doing this? Look at me... please..." cried Minwoo. He lost his mind, he was scared. He didn't know why Heechul is ignoring him like this. It felt weird. This never happen before and Minwoo can't understand a thing. He can't understand what is he doing, he can't understand why is he crying and why is he holding on like Heechul's going to die.
Minwoo ignored the pain coming from his bleeding leg and sprinted to cut Heechul from walking more. He hold Heechul as he stopped him, looked into his eyes and hugged him, letting Heechul feel his beating chest. "H-Hee... Heechul-ah... Please... Stop..." He sobs, he can't breathe well, and his words are stucked in between his breath. He felt his head getting heavy, his eyes getting puffy and worst the pain just feel even more painful. His eyes were on Heechul's set of cold eyes. They seems empty, they seems lost and worst, they seem cold and depressed. They look even colder than the winds blowing on their face. Heechul stopped on his track and just stared into the desperate eyes of Minwoo, mind still blank. But when he saw Minwoo's tears running down, his brain autmaticly ran to Hyungshik. An image of Hyungshik crying because of him ran through and he gets angry, suddenly. He pushed Minwoo away from him violently. Minwoo didn't expect to get pushed so hard by Heechul, he fell onto the road, hard. The fall makes his already wounded legs even worst but Minwoo didn't realized that yet. He was so shocked he only stared at Heechul, tears still falling. And the tears ran through the new cuts on his cheek, it hurts. The tears are mixed with blood, down to his chin.
"Stop following me. And don't touch me. Get lost," said Heechul, stern, warning Minwoo off.
That was something that Minwoo never saw. He has never seen this side of Heechul because Heechul never treated him like this before. And that shocked him so much, he couldn't even speak. He didn't move. Well, even if he wanted, he couldn't, his legs would give away with that wound. So he just watch Heechul walk away, leaving him on the road helplessly in pain and heartbroken. He watched Heechul's back slowly fade away from his vision. He forgot to breathe and when Heechul was far enough, did he realized that he hasn't been letting out any air. He coughed out, and take air back into his lugs, his tears started falling again. His vision turned blurry and he started crying again, like a kid when Heechul is totally lost from his sight. His chest heaved in and out, eyes still wide and watery. He can't believe what had just happened. He can't believe that Heechul just asked him to get lost.
Minwoo shook his head. No, this is not happening. His heart fucking hurts right now. His legs too and his hand. Everything hurts so fucking much and he just can't believe that this is happening.
Heechul walked away, not even sparing a glance at Minwoo. He didn't look back, his eyes was fixed onto the road, once again and he walked aimlessly, mindlessly. He walked until the sun is fully set, the sky went dark. The birds are all gone, back to their nests and the road started to become alive again as his legs brings him to the center of the town, where the shopping malls, clubs and theme park are. He wasn't aware of his surrounding until a running boy bumped to him, knocking him on road. He glared at the boy and the boy bowed down with a scared 'sorry'. The boy then ran away, afraid of Heechul's laser beamed eyes. Heechul looked around, to his left was a nightclub and its open. Mindlessly, he walked in but he was stopped by the bodyguard. He was about to glare when someone tap him on the shoulder and smiled at the bodyguard. The bodyguard magically let them both in and Heechul turned around to see who's helping him.
A beautiful man smiled at him. And he smiled back, a little, though in an arrogant manner, "It's you." The man smiled again and replied, "Why? Didn't expect me to be here?" Heechul cocked his eyebrow and turned around, "Nope, never thought about anything of you." He was rude but he didn't care. He walked across the dance floor, ignoring his savior. He can feel the beat in his blood, it's a good beat but now his legs are bringing him to the bar. Maybe he needed some drinks before going on to the dance floor. Might get some mood lift a bit and forget about all the problems in his head. Then he could dance. He sat there, ordering some random drink he saw on the list just because he just don't wanna think. Then somebody sat next to him. A girl, around Hyungshik age, with permed hair and hazel eyes. Heechul shrugs, that must be eye contacts. The girl was about to touch him to have his attention when a guy suddenly asked her to sit somewhere else because he claimed that it's his seat and Heechul is his lover.
The girl walked away, not wanting to have a fight with a guy and Heechul looked back at the same man who had helped him earlier. "Since when am I your boyfriend?" asked Heechul. It didn't really bother him actually but he just wanted to bitch out. Helps in making him better.
"Just wanna shoo her away," replied the guy coolly. Heechul looked away when his drinks came and concentrated on looking at the glass. For some reason, he has no interest in anything today and the glass just suddenly look interesting. He was lost in his little empty world when a hand touched his arm, asking for his attention. He took a sip of his drink and looked at his right.
"Heechul," the man called.
"What do you want, Siwan?" he asked in an irritated voice. He gave Siwan a little glare, as if warning Siwan to not talk to him anymore but it seems that Siwan quite didn't catch it. Siwan smiled when he heard that.
"Oww, you know my name. I thought you never notice me." Siwan laughed at his own words and Heechul just gave a bored look before he replied, "Of course, your my chess club president." He took another sip and tried to forget. He wanted to forget everything and slowly, his mind went away.
Siwan just smiled when Heechul drank his shot. He was staring at him as Heechul kept on drinking, ordering more when his glass is empty. He just watch Heechul getting drunk, slowly. He knew Heechul was trying to forget something and he was glad he's there to watch him. Not wanting to bother Heechul losing himself, he just stared and smiled sometimes, creeping the bartender out. The dance floor was almost packed with people, dancing. Some are making out shamelessly while the other some are just enjoying themselves. When he thought Heechul was poisoned enough, he touched the others' arms and come closer to him. He whispered to Heechul, "Let's have fun..." Heechul looked back at him, eyes drowsy and out of focus. Siwan smiled and drag Heechul out of his seat and to the dance floor. He moved with the beat, sending Heechul glances and smiles, but Heechul didn't follow his lead, he just stood there, watching him. Realising that this not going to work, Siwan pull Heechul's hand and bring him out, out of the crowd, out of the place, to his car. Heechul didn't protest, he just followed, since he wasn't even conscious actually. Half of his mind are sleeping and the other half didn't give any rejection so, he just followed Siwan to the car.
Heechul didn't seem to remember the rest of them. He only realized that he's in Siwan's apartment when he drank some water that Siwan gave. His head feels kind of heavy and he had slight headache. He sighed and tried to focus back, thinking how the hell did he got there at the first place but nothing comes out from his head. Siwan came up to him, sitting next to him and touched his face. He was a little shock at the contact, so he looked at Siwan. Siwan smiled, "Are you okay, Heechul?" Heechul ignored him and closed his eyes, trying to get his mind straight for a while. Siwan's hand caressed his cheek and then it fell down to his neck. The next thing he knew was there's a weight on his lap and his opened his eyes to see Siwan sitting on top of his lap. Siwan pull on his shirt and whispered, "Heechul-ah, forget everything and just be with me."
Then their distance is closed with a kiss from Siwan. A hand touched the back of his neck, caressing it, making his nerve relaxed and soon he find himself kissing Siwan back, wanting more touches from the other. Their kiss deepened, tongues battling one another and Siwan was satisfied, he finally get Heechul to himself today and he certainly want this to be more than a kiss. This has to be more than that. So, he takes off Heechul's shirt. Then, he takes off his. He kissed Heechul's neck, enjoying himself in appreciating Heechul's natural beauty. Heechul's skin was pale and it look so beautiful under the dim light. It look as if it glows and Heechul's face was a little red, creating beautiful blush across his cheek as he let Siwan do whatever he wanted with him, he didn't care now, what he wanted was more touches from the other and the other happily give him what he wanted. Curious hands wanders across his chest and it stopped there as long fingers touched his nipples, teasing it, hardening it with every circling rub.
Heechul let out a heavy breath when he felt mouth suckling on his skin. This feels good, he thought and when a hand left his nipple to go further down, he knew he didn't want this to stop. Siwan sucked on Heechul's skin, leaving a red mark and he smiled triumphantly when he sees it before proceeding to lick his way down to Heechul's milky chest. He liked the fact that Heechul enjoys his touches and that motivates him to pleasure the other more, more so that Heechul will remember this forever. His hand wander farther down, tracing, massaging Heechul's sexy abs greedily before cupping his crotch. Heechul let out a moan when a hand touches his crotch, rubbing it slowly and sensuously. A mouth clamped on his nipple, and he felt tongue licking his already hard nipple while the other nipple is pinched softly, in time of the mouth suckling and tongue licking.
Then, the hand left to unbuckle his belt, unbuttoning and unzipping his pants to release his caged hard on. Once his pants are off, his boxer were taken off too by a quick hand, exposing his hard cock for the other to see. Siwan pumped his dick, earning an appreciative moan from Heechul. He smiled at the size, this is going to be fun later, he thought. Siwan left Heechul's nipple to go down and look at his prize, it's exactly like how he imagined it to be, so perfect and inviting. He licked the tips of Heechul's cock and liked the sound Heechul made when he did that. Heechul felt blood rushing up to his head and down his crotch. His ears starting to get red and the blush are in deeper shade of red. He feels hot and when Siwan licked his cock all the way down to the base, his breath hitched and he find himself losing his sanity, wanting more from the other.
Smiling at his prey's reaction, Siwan started sucking the tips, loving Heechul's honest reaction. He can feel his own cock dripping, he wanted Heechul so much, he had to work this faster. He teased Heechul's already too excited cock, licking the slit, before taking more into his wet mouth, taking himself down and Heechul's cock deeper into his mouth. Heechul couldn't hold himself, the pleasure feels so damn good, he had involuntarily thrusted into Siwan's mouth, wanting it to go deeper in. Siwan let it go deeper, trying to take it all so he had to deep throated Heechul's dick. Heechul's mouth was open, he was moaning at the feeling. His hand went down from the holding on the couch to nests itself in Siwan's silky hair. He opened his closed eyes and peeked at what's happening down there. The image of Siwan trying to swallow his cock was too much, his dick twitched in excitement at the sight.
Just when Siwan thought he couldn't take it any further, he started sucking his way up and down Heechul's cock, head bobbing in attempt to pleasure Heechul out of his mind. And it worked, as Heechul's eyes shuts closed back. His head was thrown to the back and sharp moan escaped his throat, and to Siwan, nothing is better than seeing Heechul like that. Siwan was happy that he had made Heechul lose his mind so he smirked, before continuing to suck on it more, harvesting even more wild reactions and moans from Heechul. His free hand fondled Heechul's balls, caressing it softly, adding up more pleasure points to Heechul. At this point, Heechul has already lost his mind, nothing matters anymore other than that heavenly feeling of hot, wet mouth sucking him, bringing him closer to that euphoric pleasure. A hand tighten it's grip on Siwan's hair, it starting to hurt but he just let that go, it's not like he can do this everyday and he just didn't care at this moment.
"Nghh..." Heechul felt like the room has turned to a sauna, it feels so hot, he was sweating a lot. His rushing blood was heating him up but the pleasure down there made him feel as if this should never end, as he wanted to be lost like this, nothing could stop him from feeling like this. He felt his abs muscles contracted, as the tension gets higher. He was so close to reaching that point, he didn't realized that he had been pushing Siwan's head to go faster. Siwan could see that Heechul is nearing his end from his almost half abusive actions, so he complied to Heechul's silent order, fastening his pace. Accidentally, Siwan's teeth grazed the hard dick a little, up to the tips and Heechul let out a pained but pleasured scream. Siwan swirled his tongue in apologetic way and then he pushed the tips of Heechuls' cock before licking it hard. Heechul can't control himself and he cummed, shooting his white hot liquid into Siwan's ready mouth.
Heechul limped and tried to catch his breath while Siwan swallowed half of the cum, spitting the other half into his palm. He stopped for a while, admiring how sexy and beautiful Heechul looked after cumming. Heechul's eyes was still closed, his mouth was partly open, tempting Siwan to taste what's inside again. His chest was heaving up and down, sweat glistening, oh, this is the most perfect picture he had ever seen. He felt like snapping a picture of Heechul now but he knew that isn't a good idea so he had to forget about it. He went up again, to kiss Heechul's sweaty neck. "Heechul-ah, you look so sexy like this," he commented in a husky voice. Heechul smirked, his usual cocky smirk, the smirk that Siwan always love to see and Siwan smiled. Oh, yes, today is going to be the best day of his life. He looked at Heechul with eager eyes and Heechul relaxed himself, feeling more comfortable when his mind wander off a little.
He kissed more on Heechul's neck, finding the sensitive spot on Heechul neck curiously and eagerly before licking them when he found one spot, making Heechul moan again. When Heechul's breath was getting a little more steady and his chest wasn't going that fast anymore, he smirked, now he could continue. He suck on Heechul's sensitive spot, as his hand, that is holding the Heechul's cum earlier started to spread the cum on Heechul's dick, massaging it until its starting to get hard again. He heard Heechul's moan, it was starting to get louder so he pumped on Heechul's cock, trying to get it hard again. His mouth left Heechul's neck and he kissed Heechul. Taking the advantage of the open mouth, his tongue darted in, tasting Heechul, tongue caressing the other. Heechul wasn't really ready for another round but he find himself enjoying it anyway so he didn't put up any resistance as Siwan's quick hand pleasuring him continuously, in attempt get Heechul all needy for him again. And it didn't take long for him to have Heechul the way he wanted him to be. When Heechul started to thrust into his grip, he knew Heechul was ready.
He stopped abusing Heechul's neck and licked his way up to Heechul's lips, kissing him feverishly. Heechul brought his hand down, molesting Siwan's back on his way to Siwan's ass, slipping his hand into the annoyingly still there boxer. He cupped Siwan's ass and sqeeze it, making Siwan moan into kiss. His long finger played around Siwan entrance and when he inserted one finger in, Siwan jumped, a little surprised at the sudden intrusion. He can feel his cock twitching when he moaned excitedly to Heechul's mouth when Heechul's finger started to move, teasing him, hinting him for what's coming up next. He broke the kiss soon though and he pulled Heechul's hand out of his boxer as he sat on Heechul's thigh, still sending Heechul a look full with want. Heechul just watched him as he takes off his own boxer, revealing Heechul his own excited cock and Heechul couldn't help it but feeling like wanting to touch it and pump it, wanting to watch the pretty man on top of his go crazy but when he was about to grab it, Siwan stopped him.
"If you touch it, I'm not gonna last long," whined Siwan. "And I want this to be long." He brought Heechul's hand up to lips. He kissed those pretty fingers and licked it, before sucking it, turning Heechul even more horny at the sight. Siwan smiled when he saw Heechul's lustfilled eyes. He pulled Heechul's finger out with a pop. Biting his lips, he guided the well coated finger down to his entrance and stared at Heechul. Getting the hint, Heechul pushed two wet digits in, watching Siwan moaned at the intrusion. Siwan was beautiful to Heechul's eyes, he wonder why didn't he pay attention to this beauty before but then it's not like it matters anyway, what matters in now. He pulled his fingers out to push it back in, enjoying the visual feast that Siwan is giving as he moaned even more sexily and seductively, purposely to get Heechul to enjoy watching him and to make Heechul always turned on for him. Heechul started scissoring his way out and Siwan stared into his eyes with half open mouth, breathing rather excitedly as his hand started touching Heechul's abs, loving how it feels.
Heechul smirked before pushing his fingers in violently, teasing and Siwan curled his finger in reaction. Heechul then curled his finger inside, smirking even more when Siwan almost jump, almost screamed at the feeling of Heechul's fingers hitting his prostate. "You wan't me to hit it again?" Heechul asked arrogantly. Siwan nodded, "Y-yeahh..." he replied, breathily. Heechul takes his finger out and pushed it back in, hitting the same spot again. Siwan moaned, his eyes automaticly closed. Heechul just stayed like that, watching Siwan's reaction and when Siwan opened his eyes again, he licked his lips and Siwan couldn't resist himself from kissing Heechul again. When they parted, Siwan whispered to Heechul, "I'm ready. Fuck me." Heechul playfully finger fuck him, and he smiled when Siwan throw him an annoyed look. He just smiled evilly, "You just say fuck. You didn't ask for something else." Siwan glared at Heechul and Heechul laughed, Siwan look so pretty when he's angry. Siwan took Heechul's hand off his butt and pin it up above Heechul's head, "I want your... I want you, not your finger, Heechul."
Heechul smirked, "If you want it so much, then take it." Siwan stared at Heechul for a while, before kissing him for a short moment, biting Heechul's lower lips to show that he'll take it the way he want before spitting own his palm. He re-wet Heechul's almost cum dried cock and watched Heechul's face change when he forced Heechul's cock into the inside of his ass, admiring the size and enjoying the feeling of Heechul's cock slowly filling his ass up. It hurts, but his excitement override the hurting part as he continue going down, his muscles are stretched out and he can actually feel little cuts inside. He moaned when his ass cheeks hits Heechul's crotch, Heechul letting out a breath when he was fully seated. The warmth inside is already enough to make Heechul wanted to fuck Siwan mindlessly but remembering that he's playing a game, he just let Siwan get used to it first. Siwan then raise himself up, leaving Heechul's cock before pressing himself down again instantly. The pain made Siwan's eyes watery but he knew this will go away soon so he continued, repeating his action. Heechul knew instantly that Siwan doesn't have any experience so he stopped Siwan from moving, his hands holding Siwan's hips down, "You're a virgin, aren't you?"
Siwan's eyes widened at that, "H-how did y-you know?" Heechul smirked, "As I thought. Your face shows it all." He pull himself up, re-adjusting his position so that he's sitting, back against the couch and Siwan is still on top of him, adjusting to the change of position a little. He licked Siwan's ear shell, "You're so tight." Siwan shuddered at the feeling and he hold on to Heechul's strong shoulders, "T-that's because you're t-too big." Heechul chuckled and kissed Siwan's neck, "You're not happy with it? This is your first time, it might hurt." Siwan let out a gasp when Heechul pull out a little, "Just shut up and fuck me, Heechul." "As you wish, princess~" He slammed back in, minding to hit the sweet spot, making Siwan scream. Siwan shuddered, it's painful but it feels damn good, he wanted more but Heechul wasn't moving anymore. He opened his eyes, "Heechul..." he whined. Heechul bites his neck, "I'll let you control the pace. Pleasure yourself." The thought of it makes Siwan shudder, he pull himself up and went down again, slamming himself to feel the pleasure again and it worked, it feel as if the world is getting white and he find himself repeating the same action again and again, pleasuring himself like a little whore. Heechul liked that Siwan is obedient and is craving for him so he decided to help out, meeting Siwan with every thrust when he goes down, making Siwan go all nothing but mindlessly moaning at the raw pleasure he's feeling.
The tension gets higher and both Heechul and Siwan feel the need for the pace to go even faster than it already is, Siwan wanting Heechul to go even further. Heechul pushed Siwan to the side so that Siwan was laying on his back and he was on top of the unsuspecting boy. He raised Siwan's legs up to his shoulders, opening Siwan up fully before continuing to fuck him even more wildly this time. Siwan not being able to control the wave of intense pleasure, gripped on the couch tightly, fingers turning white as his body shook uncontrobably, hinting that he is near to that point. Heechul knew that Siwan was almost there, so he fucked Siwan senselessly, a little harder, also feeling that he is nearing the end. Their bodies are tangled together, Heechul giving out everything and Siwan now moaning incoherently, sweats mixing under the dimlight of the romantic harmony. Siwan forced his eyes to open, wanting to see the face of the man that he had been secretly loving in their love making. Heechul's face was wet with sweat, bangs clumped together, his blush was still there and Heechul stared back right into his eyes, making him melt into that beautiful eyes of Heechul.
He brought his hands up shakily to Heechul and touch his face, "Aa-I-I lo-love you." and he pull Heechul for another one last kiss before screaming in his throat as he finally reach his end, cum spilling all over Heechul's abdomen. Heechul felt Siwan's muscles tightening around him, he had to force himself in and out. He can feel his own orgasm few millimeters away so he pushed himself to get his turn. Siwan breathe out, body shaking when the last wave of his orgasm ended. He licked Heechul's neck, "Heechul-ah... Come for me... ngnhh" He sucked on Heechul's sensitive spot, hand feeling Heechul's back as he was fucked mindlessly by Heechul. Heechul's thrust was getting a little sloppy, his breathing was almost cut off, as the air are all stucked in his lungs and after half a minute, he came, jaws clenching as he was shooting his seed inside of Siwan. He then fell on top of Siwan, mouth opened now to replace all the oxygen that he had lost. Siwan caressed Heechul's back, smiling, satisfied with his first time sex. It was awesome and he regretted nothing. Heechul was perfect for his first time.
Heechul felt tired and when Siwan caressed his back, he felt somewhat relaxed. He rolled over a little so that he wasn't on top of Siwan anymore, afraid that he might fell asleep on top of the slim boy. When they are both side to side, Siwan smiled at him and he gave him a soft kiss on the forehead, then the lips. Heechul then closed his eyes, contented at Siwan's arms circling him. Warmth then lulled Heechul to sleep. And he was now in the other world, the world of dreams where he forgot everything and all about Hyungshik, all about Minwoo, in the world of his own, where there's nothing but him and the world.
The night was silent. The moon didn't even want to show up. Tears keep on escaping, it's like nothing can stop it from coming more. Hyungshik had been trying not to cry by trying not to think about anything but it didn't work. He would stop for a minute but then there's always something that would remind of him of the reality and his tears will involuntarily fall. His head hurts so much, it feels like his brain is bleeding and his eyes were bloodshot red and puffy. Hell, he look like shit and there's nothing he can do about it unless if he could stop crying. His throat and his body feels sore and cold. He hadn't been moving from his spot ever since Heechul left. His body was still exposed, it's cold but he was too afraid to grab at least the blanket, he just stayed there, hugging his legs, crying like there's no end. His lungs starting to hurt and it's starting to get difficult to breathe. He had never been like this. He had never felt so scared that someone might leave him before but now he is scared to near death that Heechul would.
He keep on telling himself that it's not his fault, Heechul was the one who started it and Heechul deserve it but his conscience keep on blaming himself for ever letting himself cheat back on Heechul. He should just confront him and not cheat on him but he was too hurt and scared to confront Heechul. He knew that he is nothing to Heechul's eyes even though he really wanted to believe that Heechul love him as much as he does. Heechul is perfect and he can have everything he wanted. Everybody was head over heels for Heechul's attention and he is just... he is just jealous sometimes when Heechul would look at the girls and the boys with that sparkling arrogant smile of his. He secretly wish that it was only for him, only for him to see and he secretly wanted Heechul all for himself.
And now he just screwed himself and he regretted it. Even though he knew it was him who wanted it at the first place, now he regretted everything he did with Kevin. He liked Kevin, or maybe love, he feels safe when he's with him but no matter how much he love him, that love can never rival his to Heechul. He doesn't know why but his heart just wanted Heechul so much. He cried, he hated this. He hated all of this. He hated himself, he hated Heechul but he... love him. He didn't understand. He wanted revenge before but now he just wish he never meet Kevin. He somehow wish that none of this are real and he wish that Heechul is sleeping next to him now, like how it should be. He felt like hurting himself but he knew Heechul would be mad when he comes back and he wanted nothing like that. He just wanted Heechul to come home now. He had started missing him. He wanted him back, close to him. He would forget about Minwoo, he would act like he know nothing. He just... want Heechul to come back now. Slowly, his eyes give out, and in the deep of the dark night, he fell asleep, still, hands hugging his own legs, face buried on his knees.
The next day, Kevin smiled when his alarm wakes him up. He feel so happy that morning when he remembered his dream. He was holding hands with Hyungshik at his house in Australia. Which means Hyungshik followed him there. And that dream was just perfect as Hyungshik kissed him and there was a silver ring on his finger. He looked at his and it was there too. Kevin shook his head, trying to get his goofy smile off but it didn't work. He smiled all the way to the bathroom, whistling happily. His mind then suddenly went off to what happened last evening. Hyungshik's kisses, Hyungshik's moans and his smell still lingers in his mind. He smiled, today will be a beautiful day. He could see Hyungshik a lot today since today they share the same classes. He is just so happy he just can't wait to go to the classes. After he was done in cleaning himself up and getting dressed, all looking fresh and cool, he went to kitchen to toast some bread before checking his bag, to see if all of his books are there.
When everything is done and he's finished with his little breakfast, just in case if that Jung Heechul decided to steal Hyungshik away again during their little one hour breakfast break, he went out, ready for school after he locked his apartment. He was one of the first student to arrive in class. He puffed his cheek a little, eyes wandering to see if Hyungshik is already there or no. Hyungshik always go to class early too but maybe not this time. He sat on his usual spot when he can't find Hyungshik anywhere in the lecture hall. He waited and waited, occasionally saying hi to everybody who walk pass through him. Then the reality hits him, after waiting for half an hour, the lecturer walks in and that when he give up. Hyungshik's not coming to the morning class today. Even though he didn't want to admit this but maybe Hyungshik is busy with Heechul. Heechul will join them at the second class so maybe Hyungshik will be there too. He smiled bitterly at this. Maybe Hyungshik had to skip morning class for Heechul. It happened before.
He spent the one hour break alone. It feels lonely because he missed Hyungshik so much now. After all that happened yesterday, he just fell even deeper in his love for Hyungshik. Maybe it was the kiss, maybe it was his moans or maybe it was everything about him that made Kevin crave for seeing him now. He wanted to see Hyungshik, he wanted to kiss him if he could, his heart demanded to at least see his smile for today. He sighed. Why is this one hour move so freaking slow? He stared into his watch, it's still early to go to the next class but maybe he should just go now. He didn't have the appetite to eat anything, he'll just wait for the lunch break even though that means he had to eat together with that Jung Heechul in a group. He rolled his eyes, maybe it wasn't so bad if he just concentrate on Hyungshik. Yeah. He could just ignore Heechul and concentrate on his food and Hyungshik. Minwoo doesn't hurt too, he thought. Taehun and Dongjun are good people too. It's only Heechul who spoiled the group.
So, he waited for the second time. It was boring so he closed his eyes and listened to his ipod while waiting. Until he heard people chattering gets loud suddenly. Which means Hyungshik is there with that Heechul. They are like idol couple in the campus, the girls love them and the boys wishes that they are them. He cracked his eyes open and looked at the entrance. As always, people crowding, saying hi to the campus idols but when the crowd faded, he can't see Hyungshik anywhere. There's only Heechul and... Siwan? latching on him a little with his pretty smile. He raised his brow. Did Heechul just came with Siwan? And where's Hyungshik? Heechul sat at the middle, his usual spot where everybody could see him, still wearing his usual arrogant look. Kevin's eyes widened a little when Siwan took the spot next to him, where Hyungshik was supposed to sit. That is weird, he thought. How the hell that Siwan get to sit there? Usually no one dare to sit there because everybody knows it's Hyungshik's place and since when Siwan is close to Heechul anyway? Eventhough he hated that man, he knew alot about him. Heechul never really talked to Siwan before, what he did was only ignore that pretty boy.
He wanted to go there and ask Heechul but he guess he'll wait. Suddenly, he gets a little worried. Is Hyungshik sick? Why is he absent? He find himself feeling uneasy with all this. He looked at Heechul again and he was shocked when Heechul treated Siwan a little too intimate for a new friend or something. Their hands are linked together, like how Hyungshik usually does and he swear that he saw Siwan giving that suggestive look to Heechul while put his hand on Siwan's thigh, making the girls go crazy. They... do look together, Kevin thought and secretly he wished that Heechul would be with Siwan, which leaves Hyungshik to be with him. But that's just a childish thought, there's no wat that would happen. He knew Hyungshik loved Heechul so much.
So, when the class ended, everybody went out hurriedly, stomach growling in hunger. Heechul just sat there, he was always one of the last to go out for lunch. He has that habit of just staying, and waited for a while before leaving the class. It always bother Hyungshik since Hyungshik gets hungry easily and sometimes Kevin feels like kicking Heechul out, he really shouldn't treat his boyfriend like that. Hyungshik will go all whiny, pulling Heechul to grab a lunch while Heechul will always ignore him, making Hyungshik all frustrated. He didn't see that comical scene today though, instead, Siwan trying to grab Heechul's attention by talking to him and Heechul, being Heechul ignores the poor Siwan. He sighed, he had to do this. He went to Heechul and asked, "Heechul, where's Hyungshik? Didn't see him at the morning class either."
Heechul's bored expression turns sour and he glared at Kevin, startling the older a bit. He didn't reply, he just glared. Kevin raised a brow, wondering what's up with him but he ignored the glare, getting it. He threw the paperworks on Heechul's table, "I've finished it. You wanna check it? You can send it Miss Kim after you're done." He was about to walk away when he heard Heechul hissed, "Just send it to her. I don't need to check it." He saw Heechul roll his eyes rudely. Oh, he really hate that boy. He turned back and took the assignment, determine to send it now since Hyungshik is not here so he doesn't have anything to do anyway. Siwan smiled at him as if asking him to forgive Heechul for being a brat and Kevin smiled back. He can see something sparkle in Siwan's eyes, it feels new. Siwan never had that sparkle in his eyes before, he is usually not very talkative. He went out, grabbing his cell phone from his pocket, dialling Hyungshik's number. He is still worried, especially when Heechul decided not to answer him. He waited for Hyungshik to pick up but Hyungshik didn't. While he was standing in front of his class, Taehun walked passed him, "Hey, Kev."
Kevin look up and when the call died once again, Hyungshik didn't pick up, he smiled to Taehun, "Hey there, Taehun."
Taehun didn't look too happy but he smiled anyway, "What are you doing here? Aren't you supposed to be in the cafe already? I think Dongjun and Minwoo would most probably are already there."
"Oh, nothing, just trying to call Hyungshik since I didn't see him ever since this morning." Kevin laughed a little.
Taehun cocked his brow, "Hyungshik is absent? I was about to go search him and Heechul but since he's absent, that means, Heechul is too, yeah?"
"Oh, no. Heechul is inside but no Hyungshik though. I wonder where he is." Kevin let out his worried expression. Taehun patted his shoulder, smiling.
"I think he's just fine. Maybe slept a little late last night? Well, since Heechul is here, means nothing much going on." Taehun tried to assure Kevin that Hyungshik is alright but himself didn't know.
"I sure hope so..." Kevin sighed. "Okay then, I'll head to cafe first. You grab Heechul to come down." Kevin waved Taehun goodbye and he left for his lunch break.
He went downstairs and walked straight to the cafe, all in while trying to reach Hyungshik again by calling him but still no good result. When he was at their usual spot he spotted Dongjun and Minwoo already there. He smiled and waved to them. Dongjun waved back cheerfully while Minwoo waved a little. He seems sad and Kevin took the seat next to him, "What's wrong, Minwoo?" He noticed wounds on Minwoo's cheek, it made Minwoo looked like he had been punched or something.
Dongjun turned to him, "He won't tell me. I asked him too." Dongjun pouted a little and both of them looked at Minwoo. Minwoo look like he had been crying. His eyes are puffy. And he looked tired. Minwoo is one cheerful boy so when he suddenly become like this, it's weird and both Dongjun and Kevin are starting to get worried.
Not answering to Kevin, Minwoo just looked down. He was wondering if he could tell them. After all this is all so wrong. Can he tell them that Heechul didn't want him anymore? Maybe no.
Kevin patted his arm, "Minwoo? Are you okay?"
Minwoo flinched when a pressure went straight to his wound and Kevin noticed it. Kevin patted the same spot again and Minwoo's eyes widened, he bit his lips, not wanting let out any voice out. "Are you hurt, Minwoo?" Kevin asked.
Minwoo's eyes started to become watery and Dongjun started to freak out a little. "Minwoo, what's wrong?" asked Dongjun this time.
Tired with Minwoo being silent, Kevin pull up his sleeve. He was a little shocked to discover there are more wounds, and Kevin asked again, "What happened, Minwoo? Who did this to you?" He was angry now. Why is Minwoo being silent at this? And who did this to Minwoo?
It's not the pain that made Minwoo's tears fell but the question Kevin asked. He can't tell it was Heechul, could he? They will dwell more on it and eventually they will know all about his secret love relationship with Heechul. But he can't bring himself to lie. His tongue didn't want to move. Kevin wiped his tears away, "I'm sorry. But really, what happened, Minwoo? I'm worried."
Kevin sighed when Minwoo didn't answer again. Then suddenly Minwoo's eyes looked at something behind his back and tears started to fall even more. Kevin looked back to see Heechul, with Taehun and Siwan next to him. He looked back to Minwoo and he can see that Minwoo is looking at Heechul. Siwan was holding hands with Heechul and that fucking hurts Minwoo. So, now Heechul had his replacement, Siwan. That's why he left him. Siwan is prettier than him, he noted, maybe he deserve Heechul more but why is his heart hurting like hell now? But he couldn't say a thing. He was thrown away yesterday and Heechul told him to fuck off. He... didn't know what to do. Heechul just looked down at Minwoo and with his usual arrogant look, he sat on one of the seat, totally ignoring Minwoo. Siwan sat next to him, smiling to all of them. He looked happy, Minwoo thought. Of course he's happy, Heechul is his now. And he is... what? The toy that Heechul didn't want anymore. His hands shake. Kevin didn't seem to understand any of this. The way Minwoo is looking at Heechul is like his heart is broken by seeing Heechul with Siwan. But why?
Taehun was shocked to see Minwoo's tears falling. He didn't understand a thing either when he first saw how close Siwan with Heechul. It feels like he's seeing a pair of lovers but when he saw the way Minwoo look at Heechul, he thought he knew just what happened. Somehow, his heart was touched too, it hurts seeing Minwoo like that. He had warned Minwoo though. He had, but why is his heart hurting like this?
A/N: Sorry for the late update! Life traffic >,< OMG I feels so sorry for Minwoo and Hyungshik ;A; and Taehun too... just everybody except Dongjun for now. Uhm... are you guys sad too reading this? I think I just made myself sad writing this. And ahhh... yes, I think this fic is gonna be long... Dx Maybe 3 more chapters? Please don't kill me. /run away
btw... HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYBODY!!!! /give lots of kisses and hugs
and... Me and my friends did My Only Wish Cover and... /smiles brightly/ eventhough it's not good, coz we are actually stressed that time with all the scolding from my mom and dad... teaching those kids how to sing correctly... problem in recording and stuff... but... We made it LOL supposed to be posted for Christmas though kekeke
(my only wish was you~